2012

2012..

The first time my besties and I welcomed you, I knew you would be so precious, full of stories and feeling.

You know, in 2012 many things changed. So many moments. So many people.

*January 1, celebrate New Year Eve in Peak's house.
*February 12, made up our friendship. I love this part so much.
*Graduated from Saint Yosef senior high school.
*Long holiday. I spent my time with my besties. Made so many stupid crazy unforgettable moments.
*May 18 my first prom night. It was cool of course.
*May 20-21 XII Science 1 class farewell. Cant say anything but wow. We were together for year and we celebrate our farewell, made the best moment for the last time. Felt so beautiful but yeah it hurt inside.
*May 23 school farewell. Got forth in my class, my mom smiled. I liked it. That time I promised myself to make her proud.
*Juni 24, moved to Yogyakarta. In the morning, my dad my sister my brother cici and root accompany my mom and I in the airport. It was hard to say goodbye to them.
*July 13-15, August 4 INSADHA. These four days were so amazing.
*My brother moved to public school. Honestly, it suprised me.
*August 17 my birthday, yeah. Shandy made it special.
*September 15-16 English Welcoming Day.
*October 20-21 basketball FKIP night.
*My mom accompanied my grandma to Jakarta, took care of baby. She was so strong. I loved her.
*December 24 my first blood transfusion.
*December 25 my first Christmas without my fam, so does my mom. We were apart in three different countries. I miss my mom I miss my dad. My sister, my brother, I miss them.
*December 31. Today. Our last day, 2012.

Now I'll have to let you go, so.. yeah, thank you for everything. May I say, "see you later"? Someday somewhere I dont know.. yeah maybe, good bye.

Go

Aku menantang Dia dengan melepaskan hadiah dariNya. Melepaskan seseorang yang begitu berharga. Mungkin satu-satunya.

Aku menantangNya, "Aku menolak ia dan cinta yang ditawarkannya. Dapatkah Kau memberikanku seorang yang lain?"

Harusnya aku mengerti. Dari awal, Ia telah memberikan jawabanNya. Saat aku membuang kesempatan itu, tak akan ada lagi yang seperti dia. Tak akan ada pelukan sehangat pelukannya. Tak akan ada lagi cinta yang sama, terjalin hangat dalam setia dan pengorbannya.

Aku menantangNya. Bertaruh pada takdir. Mungkin aku kalah. Namun bukankah belum terlambat untuk memanjatkan doa yang lain?
Semoga dia dapatkan bahagianya.